About
Dancer. Student. Fashion Lover. Friend. Sister. Daughter. FIGHTER.
Hello lovelies! My name is Jen, and I was born and raised in Mississauga, Ontario. The terms that I have listed above basically describe me in a nutshell, and have shaped me into the person that I am today. All these labels carry a lot of meaning behind them, however, I have created this blog to solely focus on the last term... Fighter. I am here to share my truth, to share my story, and to share my fight, authentically and vulnerably.
I have been struggling with an eating disorder for six years. When I was a child, I was diagnosed with EDNOS (now known as OSFED). Flash forward to October of 2017, I was re-diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa (binge/purge subtype). From there, things spiralled downhill very very quickly. At first, I was restricting & overexercising. Calorie counting and taking multiple classes at the gym everyday. As I fell deeper into my eating disorder, I began to engage in other symptoms as well. Laxatives/diuretics used to be scary for me, yet now they are both normal. Safety nets. Dance became just another way to burn calories. Making myself sick became easier, and easier, and easier. Hospital visits became a re-occuring theme. My eating disorder latched onto certain substances that suppressed my appetite. I could go on and on, but most importantly, my eating disorder took away any hope I had for the future. Day after day, week after week, month after month. I am not living, I am surviving.
This blog is to document my ups and downs through my journey. It is to document my ambivalence about recovery, and to show those struggling that they are not alone. The fight is long and hard, and I am only at the beginning.
Hello lovelies! My name is Jen, and I was born and raised in Mississauga, Ontario. The terms that I have listed above basically describe me in a nutshell, and have shaped me into the person that I am today. All these labels carry a lot of meaning behind them, however, I have created this blog to solely focus on the last term... Fighter. I am here to share my truth, to share my story, and to share my fight, authentically and vulnerably.
I have been struggling with an eating disorder for six years. When I was a child, I was diagnosed with EDNOS (now known as OSFED). Flash forward to October of 2017, I was re-diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa (binge/purge subtype). From there, things spiralled downhill very very quickly. At first, I was restricting & overexercising. Calorie counting and taking multiple classes at the gym everyday. As I fell deeper into my eating disorder, I began to engage in other symptoms as well. Laxatives/diuretics used to be scary for me, yet now they are both normal. Safety nets. Dance became just another way to burn calories. Making myself sick became easier, and easier, and easier. Hospital visits became a re-occuring theme. My eating disorder latched onto certain substances that suppressed my appetite. I could go on and on, but most importantly, my eating disorder took away any hope I had for the future. Day after day, week after week, month after month. I am not living, I am surviving.
This blog is to document my ups and downs through my journey. It is to document my ambivalence about recovery, and to show those struggling that they are not alone. The fight is long and hard, and I am only at the beginning.